the last time

i remember it clearly. frankly, it is one of those times i wish my memory would fail me. my heart cried and my body moaned, but nothing i could do would turn back time. she was dead. it didn't matter how much it hurt, or how much i moaned...nothing was going to bring her back. i remember it all too clearly, and tonight felt very much the same way.

it was not that long ago, and now that i think of it, i'm not too sure my heart has ever recovered. it has cried....to friends and to strangers alike. it keeps crying...but i don't think anyone ever hears it.

tonight it started all over again. she is right there, but no matter how good a friend, she might as well be dead. my heart and my eyes sob right in front...RIGHT IN FRONT...and all she can talk about is...