stabbed

there was a time i would have answered that call. that was me! that WAS me. i can even prove it with my SAT. it's hard to keep going once you've been stabbed like that though. all the ridicule and bullshit? that was easy. but once you've stabbed at the core, well...enough is enough.

you can't answer the call if your battery is dead.

uninspiring inspiration

there's a magnet on the fridge. without stormy weather we'd have no rainbows. awww. except it is not true. it has not rained here for weeks, and with sunlight, a running hose, and my thumb i made a rainbow today.

i wish it would have cheered me up. i think some stormy weather would help.




there were moments
when i kept going. without food. without water. i kept going. i had to.
was it the heart? was it the mind? the legs!
the answer doesn't matter

Creepy riding

404

it came today. i remember when i first saw it for sale. there was so much about it that just seemed fitting for us. sure it was damaged, but nothing is perfect, right? it came today...and it brought a smile to my face thinking about how i would patch it up a little and give it to you. i smiled as i looked it over and thought about how people had seen it and figured it was worthless, but for me it would be so easy and satisfying to fix.

then i remember. i will never give this to you. you will be busy that day. you will be somewhere i am not and enjoying it. you have made up your mind and this worthless piece of junk is not going to change anything.

it really saddens my day to realize i have to get you out of my head and my life.

tuesday

i keep wanting to think it's some kind of joke. i'm pretty sure she's being serious though. it's a rough in-between time, i reckon. or end time. shit, i don't know. i've never known, because that's just not something i would know.

today was a sick day. i'm pretty sure it'll take more than a day to get better...but that's all i got right now.