day 1 (night 2)

it's quite hard for me to take this first step. i feel i need to do it, yet i feel like i'm flushing so much time, so many dreams, so much...down the drain. i suppose it is a bit like a bandage that needs to come off. if you rip it off fast or if you slowly peel it off...it is still going to sting. it is still going to hurt.

i wish i knew why it is never right, why it is never enough, why we must always part ways.

i am tired of feeling defective.

i am tired.