pain.

if you asked me how long it has been, i wouldn't be able to give an honest answer. my guess is that i have felt like this for about 4 or 5 years now. i typically won't complain. what's the point in complaining? it's not like it would make me feel any better.

you may not know this, but living in constant pain sucks. it sucks having to fake your smiles. it sucks that people can never really understand unless they are going through it too. it sucks having to suck it up on top of all the other things that can make life crappy. but, what other choice is there?

gotta just...suck it up.