round and round we go

le sigh. my back hurts. as much as i try to massage it and caress it and do this or that...it continues to hurt. i hate it. it makes me feel old and broken...no offense to those with more years on this earth. but well, i'm trying to push on.

something to be happy about: i have a working camera again. i purchased the same one that i had previously, an olympus stylus 1010. it may seem like a mistake to purchase it for only $50 less than what i'd paid for my previous one. after all, it is a discontinued model now, and the new ones are better...faster...stronger. or are they? despite boasting more zoom and more megapixels, i simply wasn't happy with the new models. i liked my old one just fine, and i'm happy with it now. is that strange? is that one of those man/woman differences? or is it an adken/most people thing? not to talk bad about my mother, but an example comes to mind. i noticed she bought a red raspberry preserves from the walmart brand. no doubt there was a 50 cent or dollar difference in the price with the Smucker's jar, but from previous experience it does not taste as good...and actually tastes too sweet for our tastes. why not just get the one you like? or nothing?

some things to not be so happy about: i took a nasty spill on my bike the other night. i was headed home, and due to the nature of san antonio streets, was forced to take a detour. well, who knows what happened, but my tire blew out, my rear rim caved, and i went and landed on my behind. it doesn't hurt bad, but it does hurt. great...something else to hurt.

my heart also continues to hurt. (no, not physically). any time i'm sober i think i need a little buzz to spit it out. any time i have a little buzz, i know i should be sober to say it. i see yes's. i see no's. in the end, i figure i see what i want to see, so i guess it's all just me. :o\ then again, people are surprising. it's always nice to get a sign of life just when you've given it up for dead.

so tomorrow is my 1 day completely off from work. i wish there were some sort of organized ride here in town. it's pretty much everyone's day of rest. bleh. well, i guess i will go to sleep now so i can wake up somewhat early and make the best of it.