june2

i think i tried this once before. i am ok at typing without errors. it slows my speed down, but really i have all the time in the day to write this out. well ok that's not true. the expressino is all the time in the world. anyway, right now i am not looking at the screen to type this out. d since i find myself cheating sometimes i have even removed my glasses to remove the temptation. anyway, writing like this helps sometimes. right now i would like to go to sleep, but here i have been laying down for about an hour and am still awake as can be. why is it that i can keep sleeping for the longest time sometimes? i mean, i will wake up eat and then be able to go back to sleep right away. without effort. now i am here resorting to old tricks trying to clear my mind and make myself sleepy.

ok i have to admit that i put my glasses back on for a second just to make sure i hadn't accidentally been typing gibberish this whole time. i guess it is still gibberish either way. and now, blank.

what do i want? i want to sleep. i want to eat in peace. i want to stop worrying about all these problems and i want to do that without the help of medication. i say that not because i think i need medication, but because that seems to be the solution many times. well, that's not a solution. at least for me. hmm, i want a new job. i want a satisfying job if one exists for me. i admit that i cheated on typing those last words out a little bit. i wonder if that means i amm getting tired. i am starting to make mistakes with my typing. getting sloppy with my technique. hmm. i want to know what is on some people's minds. i want to know that there is good reason to do things the right way when nobody is watching, other than that i would have to answer to my conscience. i want to break free. i want to break freeeeee. ok that was queen. hmm, anything else you want for christmas? oh wait, i don't celebrate christmas. it felt like i made a list though.

anyway, enough of this blind typing. i am pausing more now trying to figure out what will come next. does that mean my head is getting emptied from thoughts? that doesn't even make sense. well, enough is enough. i am sorry to have wasted your reading time, but it did help make me tired a little. i am tempted to just hit the x ike so many other times. i tend to feel there is no point in posting pointless posts. maybe someone will get a laugh out of it though...or an idea. i dunno. shutting down. goodnight.

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